Where do I begin on testimonies on Jesus?

Well I do have concerns that blog posts might look untidy on Webpages, which can look cool and classy, but we shall see.

Jesus never came close to my radar until perhaps 2 years after my marriage. Before my marriage I was a Buddhist, however, I was drawn close to the religion of christianity via dreams of mother mary while I was a buddhist. Either that, or I would have dreams of God. I did not get a chance of getting close to Jesus. I was actually afraid of Him, and afraid of knowing him more even.

Why was that so? My mum and dad had instilled in me that things might not go smoothly for me if I tried to find out more about another religion. I guess they wanted to keep me close to them. Once I am in a different religion, I might laugh at what they are praying and drift away from them. Totally understand.

Yet when the time comes for a person to know Jesus, no one can force it, no one can stop it. Jesus could have chosen to call me years before I got married, but He just didn’t. I had to go through years of polishing I guess. But once I met Him at CSC (Catholic Spirituality Centre in Singapore), things changed. I began to be very aware of what was the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. A voice spoke to me, constantly on How Pleased He was, and how He intended to mold me.

To be honest, I did get frighthened. I felt that maybe I was in for a very bad ride in my life. Cause they said that with Jesus, with Christianity, you will be tested, again and again and again. Looking back, I did not know the weapons and the ways to be protected again and again, so I let myself be victimised. I did not know for instance, that you have to be truly God fearing, truly like you know, letting the spirit lead the way, to attain the blessings that belong to you.At least, this is what i feel now, but it certainly wasn’t what I felt then. I just felt that maybe Christianity was a mistake, in the first few months of baptism, whenever things did not work out.